Hiring a Maid

Tony left Sunday for Altus. Usually when he is gone I'm able to get household stuff done more readily but not this time. I've just been in this funk now for weeks. Maybe it is the homeschooling. Maybe it is demanding too much of my daily mental capacity. I'm finding the house to be a last priority. My sanity is number one. And that entails making sure school is done satisfactorily to my standards AND that I get the time I need to recharge. The problem lies in the fact that my recharging does NOT include folding laundry or vacuuming or putting things away. Yet at this point the demands on my psyche to amend this household issue is draining more of me away than if I had found a means to get it all done. I also have things on my own agenda that I want to get done that I haven't been able to tackle. For various reasons. Money. Time. Being awake. Knowledge. And I think this wonderful, amazing invention the iPad, is not helping me at all. I find myself pouring my wakeful down time into silly games. Games that have become my go to place to get away from everything else and that has now caused me more stress as I'm still not getting the important things done. Add on to this the child that is constantly glued to my side. Hope wants to be involved with EVERYTHING!!!! She won't go away. So I find myself doing things that I know she wont like to watch me do or can't help with just to make her go play on her own. Don't get me wrong, I still adore homeschool. And I'm not upset or depressed really. Just not myself. Maybe that is a good thing. My normal person wouldn't ever allow my house to get into the state that it is. Maybe I'm just learning to relax some...or maybe I've run away to a faraway planet where I'm part of the star league defending against Xur and the Ko-Dan Armada and this body is just a beta unit...

...nah, the beta unit knew it was a beta unit...